Eye Contact

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Noor Kumarchadha


He is shelling peanuts in our kitchenette, I am folding the clothes. 

Aligning corners like an origami swan. What if my shirt grows white wings and feathers? After all, the river is just a sprint away.

We are outside the theatre, it’s cold, it’s January. It’s late. Did I mention that before?  Rehearsals wrapped at 12 because our director didn’t like how we were pronouncing our r’s. (Roll them).

We stand under the old Banyan tree, a faint glow illuminates from a distant cafe. It’s dark. Like the sacred space under a tongue, untouched. 

He lights a cigarette and I bum mine off his. 

It becomes a ritual.

We stay there till the ash licks our fingertips, every night.

Never saying a word.

Then we walk to our cars and think about each other till we meet the next morning. 

I feel it on my neck – his gaze. 

It burns a hole into my skin like someone has left a cigarette there

Maybe for a moment too long?

Cautiously, I meet his eyes… 

That’s the first night he ever came over. 

Now we have thirteen potted plants and a bright red sofa. 

He is shelling peanuts in our kitchenette, I am folding the clothes.

We look up at the same time

It smells of cigarette smoke.