I have school tomorrow, so usually Iâ€™d be in bed by now, but itâ€™s my first dÃa de los muertos outside of Ojo de Agua and Iâ€™m surprised that everyoneâ€™s not celebrating the dead.
Grandfather takes off work at the train station tonight.
We spend all day making pan de muerto. We bake the sweet bread to look like a skull. I knead my two thumbs in the skull to make little eye-sockets. I carve little teeth with the tips of my finger nails. At midnight we will float the skulls down river and grandfather says it will drift all the way to Mom and Dad in the Gulf of Mexico.
I donâ€™t see how it will get there, and if it does, then I donâ€™t understand why we set out blankets and pillows for Mom and Dad in our house? But Grandfather says the bread is for their bones and the pillows are for their souls.
We walk down Ninth Street to a small section where there is sand that meets the Hudson River. We live on the wrong side of the river, Grandfather says.That on the other side of the river, in New York, is where dreams come true.
There are large pieces of dead wood on the sand like bodies waiting to be buried. Across the river are the tall buildings. The windows have lights on and off that look like the little teeth of skulls, as though the entire city is a sugar offering for the dead.
He checks his pocket watch and sighs. I hate his pocket watch because whenever he looks at it he is never happy.
We put the mariposas and the ofrendas in the water and they float on top of the tide.
I can see the red lights of the Lackawanna Train station and they play in the water against the butterflies floating down the river like the thoughts of the dead.
Eliot Hudson is an author and singer songwriter. He’sÂ earned two master’s degrees at the University of Edinburgh (Literature in Modernity; Creative Writing). His poems haveÂ been publishedÂ in the collectionÂ â€˜Garlic and Sapphireâ€™,Â and in the online poetry journal,Â Cleaves. He’s been featured as a contributing writer for the Punxsutawney Spirit, and the travel journal, Exploration.Â Hudson also writes songs andÂ performs under the stage nameÂ Hudson UndergroundÂ throughout New York City. He’sÂ played as far as Barcelona, London, Rome, Romania, Vietnam andÂ performed at the Edinburgh Fringe Festival.Â