By Sahar Rehan
othing grows in the deserts of Thar, at least nothing that doesnâ€™t require the price of blood, sweat and backbreaking toil. The days are hard for most but they are harder for Sakina, the manhoos
, the perpetually barren; who drained her husbandâ€™s long life down to thirty five measly years without showing the courtesy of giving him children to make it worthwhile.
Sakina does not work in her family home. She works in the Big House as a kitchen maid because her father-in-law will not let her tend the goats and her mother-in-law wonâ€™t tolerate her manhoos shadow in the kitchen. The village has been suffering through a two year drought; fields have turned in to cracked mazes for ants and tempers are wearing thinner than the livestock that depend on the rain-grass for grazing. Some blame the Baray Saeen for ignoring their pleas for irrigation canals, most blame Sakina, the barren.
Rain clouds flitted over the village a month ago but gave nothing more than a few swift slaps of wind and a piss poor excuse of a dribble leaving the land more parched than it was before. The wells have turned brackish and are infested with lizards.
Sakinaâ€™s mother-in-lawâ€™s beady eyes have watched Sakina tear her lower lip raw since the storm clouds came and went. There is a new smell of secrets in Sakinaâ€™s musk that is picked up often by the old womanâ€™s keen nose. Black clouds converge on the western horizon and the boom of distant thunder can be heard again when Sakina comes to her mother-in-law on hesitant feet, constantly palming her hands, as if to wash off unseen grime.
â€œMother,â€ she croaks, â€œmother.â€
â€œWhat is it?â€ Sakinaâ€™s mother-in-law snaps. â€œWhat calamity are you going to break on our heads now? Will it rain frogs,â€ she asks, flicking the tip of her darning needle at the sky, â€œor will the lightning burn our house down on our heads?â€
â€œMother,â€ her mouthings are barely audible whispers but she manages in a faint rush, â€œI am with child.â€
The storm did not break, the winds did not intrude in the small hut; there was only an indiscriminate silence in which the darning needle stilled.
â€œWas it the Baray Saeen?â€ the old woman asked quietly.
â€œHis son,â€ Sakina said sighing with relief. She had expected screaming abuse, a beating or two before being thrown out of the house. Not this calm enquiry in to the nature of her infidelity and her miraculous fertility.
â€œHow far along are you?â€ the mother-in-law asked, her fingers resuming the diligent flow of the needle in cloth.
â€œTwo months, I think,â€ Sakina spread the palms of her hands in uncertainty.
â€œI see,â€ the old woman nodded, â€œyouâ€™re father-in-law will be coming home soon. Iâ€™ll get the dinner started.â€
The village slept in peace that night, the sound of thunder lulling it in to sweet dreams of sprouting grasses and wells full of fresh rainwater. In the darkest hour of the night the old couple dragged the body of Sakina to an unused well and dropped her in. The father-in-law looked at the sky hopefully once the deed was done, the mother-in-law stopped to spit in the lifeless face at the bottom of that steep shaft, revelling in the lizards darting forth to try morsels of Skinaâ€™s still warm flesh.
The village woke next day to watch the clouds disperse without a single rain drop.
Nothing grows in the deserts of Thar, at least nothing that doesnâ€™t require the price of blood, sweat and backbreaking toil.