â€¦As the feather gracefully descended
back to the moist earth
the breeze softly whispered to it â€“ â€˜Iâ€™m carrying you to a poetâ€™s study
for her muse should write your destinyâ€™.
Look closely this time, into the white spaces of my pages and you might perhaps get a glimpse of the destiny that had been gifted to me by a force that invariably failed to be explicit and unambiguous, leaving every precious detail of life indefinable, just so the likes of me could learn to discover themselves. I always knew that my unfilled pages were born to preserve the honest musings of a dreamer or poet, though none of this I would have known if it werenâ€™t for that dark-eyed gentleman who bought me as his notebook. He was a well-known writer by then, I was told, though rumour had it that as a boy, he had dreamt of being an adventurous sailor instead, but his father had imagined a much quieter life for his son. And thus, he and I had met.
I quietly waited now with pages filled with lines that spoke of intrigue and lust, violence and mistrust. I got the impression that that was what appealed to men mostâ€¦ and I wondered why. I survived the wait, and the weight of those words forced upon me, as the lines of poetry and love groaned unheard underneath the facade that was meant only for sale. Until one miraculous night, when the enchanting moonlight spilled on my ruffled pages and washed off every vulgar word written with dishonesty. I felt light once again after a very long time. Those words of love and Nature Â rose and filled every space with their beauty and joy! I was no longer a â€˜thriller novel for saleâ€™ that looked like every other book on the shelf but a â€˜book of poetryâ€™ for the dreamer instead. These days, I only wait for the moonlight to melt away my miseries so I can come alive for a short while.
Madhurima Duttagupta started her career as a journalist withÂ The Times of India. She has, to her credit, over a hundred published works across several reputed national dailies likeÂ The Hindu, Deccan Herald and The Times of India. Since moving to Singapore in 2007, she has held senior editorial positions for leading lifestyle magazines. Madhurima, who is also an active blogger, has recently authored a book titled â€˜Goddess & Whoreâ€™.